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Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Learning, Ever Learning

I can't believe that we have been in Idaho now for 4 months. We planned on living with my sister Katie and her family for about a month while we found a home. But the house process has proved to be a bugger. 
We found 2 houses that both seemed to fit our needs and put an offer in on both. Since they were both short sales we decided this might help us get into a home sooner.
 January went by and we heard nothing. February came and I started to feel discouraged, but half way through the month we were told that one of the homes had counter offered. We negotiated, gave our second offer and they accepted. So for about 5 days we were told we had that home. 
Our energy was high, we were so excited and then thrown a curve ball. Our realtor came back and told us that because this particular home had a HUGE second mortgage on it, the second bank didn't agree to the first bank and we no longer had the house. As you can imagine we felt deflated. This home had felt SO right.
I had spent countless nights decorating this home in my head, dreaming about how I would make it ours, and then to be told "oops..nevermind" felt devasting.
I will admit that this whole process has been a real struggle for me. I have my moments of faith where I feel like we moved here on a leap of faith and everything will work out in the Lord's time. Then I have my moments of doubt and wonder "what the heck" or "maybe I should have stayed behind until Beau found us something." The truth is...although sometimes I doubt....I know we were suppose to move back. It has been a blessing to be around family again. 
I cannot doubt the answers I had recieved when I prayed about moving her. Yet I am still so human and tend to forget in my moments of doubt to "just have faith" as my husband so often tells me.

Another month flew by and guess what? The other house in Rigby we had an offer on accepted our offer. But I felt nothing. I didn't feel excited. I felt conflicted and confused. I convinced myself that I had just shut down my emotions due to the constant yo-yo effects of the "what-if's" and waiting.
I should have felt happy. This home was a dream home. GORGEOUS kitchen, plenty of room to grow, something we could be in forever. But I just didn't feel quite right. 
Isn't it beautiful? 
I think more than anything else...I was in love with the kitchen!

 We had the inspection done. The whole while I just kept deciding that since nothing else had fit our family, the other home was still a wild card, and there was nothing on the market that felt right, this must just be where we were suppose to be. 
I tossed and turned the night after our inspection. Praying to feel peace about moving forward.

That next morning we got a phone call. We were told that the first home, we thought we had, had also accepted our offer. That the paperwork had been done and negotiations between the two banks had finished and that we could also accept this home.
Talk about CONFUSED. 
I thought the answer would be obvious but really just felt more torn then ever. I went to bed that night feeling completely defeated. Beau was also torn. The bigger of the two house {the one pictured above} had it's perks, but also some downs. The one that just pulled through, slightly smaller, had many ups and some downs too. They seem to be equal.

I pleaded with Heavenly Father to help us to find peace and also to help guide us. 
I dreamed that night about both the homes. They were both layed out before me..the pros and cons were about equal and obvious. I knew in my dream that both were good options. Both would fit our families needs. Both would have room to grow and stay awhile. 
I then felt such peace.
I knew that the decision was easy. We just needed to pick the one that would be BEST for our family. 
Again, feeling that there wasn't a right or wrong answer.

I woke up feeling better. I told Beau about my dream. We decided to go look at the first home again. Maybe, seeing them back to back, one day after each other, might help us see which one fit better.
We went to the home again. This time with a new perspective. We nitpicked and made sure that we compared the 2 homes the best we could.
It was pretty obvious after we left. 
This second home may not have a large dream kitchen, like the one above, but it did have way more positive things that would be beneficial to our family now as well as in the future.

We told our Realtor we had changed our mind and to cancel the process for the Rigby home.
We knew that THIS home is where we were suppose to be right now.
I am so excited! I can't wait to post pictures of it!

I wish through all of this I could have not been such a basket case and could have just had perfect faith. But I am human. I am learning! Continually learning. And although that can be hard I have to choose to let it be progression not digression. Thank goodness for the gospel that always brings me peace and clarity when I need it the most.
Watching my children struggle through this transition has not been easy. Feeling like we are in limbo and still on vacation hasn't been easy. I am ready for my storage shed to be unpacked. I am ready for my children to have their things and also feel like this is permanent. They often ask "when are we going back to Cedar."
I think being in our home will help them transition more fully.

We feel forever blessed by my sister Katie and her husband Cameron's willingness to open their home and let us be part of their family. We have learned so much about them and have formed a special kind of love for them. It could not have been easy going from a family of 4 to having 11 people in their home. 
Yet, they did it. And we are so grateful.
We like to call them the "good innkeepers" and really they are. 
Thank you Thank you Thank you!!
Now fingers crossed there will be no other glitches.

5 comments:

Lisah said...

I am so proud of you for the strength you had to overcome the challenge of being uprooted for so long! You're such a good example to me and I LOVE YOU! I also LOVE LOVE LOVE your home! Its perfect!!!

Lisah said...

I am so proud of you for the courage, faith and strength you had to be uprooted for so much longer than you hoped. You are such a good example to me and I love you!! I also LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE your house! Its perfect!

Lisah said...

I am so proud of you for the strength you had to overcome the challenge of being uprooted for so long! You're such a good example to me and I LOVE YOU! I also LOVE LOVE LOVE your home! Its perfect!!!

Madeline and Family said...

Congrats on the house. It is such a big decision I know. I can't wait to see how it looks inside.

Heather said...

Hey Bonnie! So happy you have found your place. I am in need of a photographer do you know someone in the slc area? My email is dancqn18@yahoo.com Or do you sometimes do slc? We used you in Cedar then moved, then found a lady up here then she moved! Well hope all is well!