I have dreamt and thought about nothing else for over a year now. I am not like other women who hate being pregnant. I REALLY enjoy it! And trust me I could get into a whole long blog about how HARD and HORRIBLE my last pregnancy, delivery, etc. was. But STILL, even as hard as it was, I still enjoy being pregnant!
I LOVE the feel of a child moving and growing inside of me. I love having a belly. I love the closeness I feel to the Lord. I love the vivid spiritual dreams and experience that I have while pregnant. I love the closeness of the spirit and that feeling once the baby is delivered that is in the room, well you all know, is indescribable!! Many of you know that with my last baby I was robbed of all of that. I had a "natural" c-section, in the sense the T-blocker didn't take, so I felt everything but the incision. SO I crave to have a GOOD experience again! I even crave this:
This is me at almost 9 months pregnant with Kennedy. I had three days until my c-section. So one week before I was due! So if any of you haven't caught on yet.....
YES!! WE ARE FINALLY PREGNANT!!! It feels so surreal because for so long now it hasn't happened for us. But we are so excited and have been feeling for so long that our family has been missing somebody!!
So in my own defense, to all those I have flaked out on recently and been unreliable too, I am sorry! I know that many know it isn't like me, but I have been really sick. And as luck always has had it for me, I will continue to be. But I wouldn't trade any loss of meals, lack of appetite, or exhaustion, for this experience once again!!! I hopefully can reschedule the many appointments I have canceled and get back to feeling OK soon!
I have another post I will try to get to soon. I filmed the kids when we told them! They have been so excited and soooooo SWEET to me! Hopefully I am not jumping the gun by telling everyone so soon, but I am too excited and to sick to try to hide it!!!
4 days ago